I don’t know what’s going on with Nadya Suleman, but she seems like a crazy sociopath who is more than willing to sell out her kids for whatever fame she can squeeze out of her sad situation. Today she has a kind of disclosure video on Radar Online that’s staged to look like an intimate conversation with a friend over fondue. It made me ill to watch the whole thing, because it’s like she’s saying all these things for show and doesn’t realize the ramifications her words will have on her children for the rest of their lives. She’s lying and trying to justify her actions to the public without taking any personal responsibility.

She says her kids asks several times a day about their father, who they’ve never met or even seen a photo of. The details are vague, but it sounds like the guy was a friend of hers. After he fathered six children with her through IVF he said he would be open to meeting them. He seems to have own family, but to have once been willing to tell Nadya’s children he was their father and to visit with them. Then Nadya got pregnant again this last time using the frozen embryos without asking his permission and it ruined their relationship. So she’s basically admitting that her children’s father could have been a part of their lives but that she ruined it by going behind his back and getting pregnant again. How are her kids going to feel when they’re old enough to find this confessional video on their own?

In this brand new story, Nadya reveals –for the first time — how she coerced the father of her 14 children to be the sperm donor, and that he was extremely upset when he learned she had frozen his sperm to keep having kids.

“I screwed myself. I screwed up my life and I screwed up my kid’s lives. What the heck am I going to do?”, Nadya says as she dines Wednesday night with her best friend at The Melting Pot, a fondue restaurant in Brea, California near her home in La Habra, Calif. In another candid statement, Nadya says “I have to pretend I don’t regret it.”

Nadya also reveals that every day, her older children ask about their father, whose identity remains a mystery. “He’s just afraid. He’s hiding,” says Suleman. “He’ll lose everything”.

In past interviews, Nadya has described the babydaddy as a “friend,” but now, speaking to RadarOnline.com, she admits: “I secretly wanted him in my life.”

Nadya says she wants to apologize to the father, saying “he’s probably angry and resentful.” Adds Suleman: “I’m the ghost that’s haunting his existance.”

She also says if the father does not initiate a relationship with her children on his own, she will reveal his identity to her oldest child Elijah when he turns 18 in ten years, so that he can contact his dad, if he wants to.

[From Radar Online]

Nadya talks about the father of all her children without giving his name, profession or any personal details. She says she convinced him to donate more sperm to father more children with her “year after year,” but that it wasn’t until about a year and a half ago that she told him she wanted him to be a part of her children’s lives. He agreed, she says, but then he was understandably upset that she went and got pregnant again with eight more. She said “I feel so much guilt for that,” but then turned right around and acted like it was no big deal, adding “How am I supposed to know more than one would grow?”

Suleman said “I live in denial. I blame myself and that’s how I live with it. I coerced him into helping me every year.” It’s like she’s saying all the right things, but she doesn’t mean them. Given her actions she’s surely lying through her teeth and doesn’t feel guilty about anything. This woman does whatever she wants and thinks she’s justified.

Her friend brings up the father’s “his profession,” and I get the feeling that the guy was an IVF doctor. Nadya’s friend says “In his profession, he could have said ‘no,'” but Nadya says she’s “trying to protect him and his profession” despite talking all this smack about him.

Whatever the guy does, he’s got to be scared that Suleman is going to reveal his identity. What do you think her motivations are for talking about the father? Is she trying to threaten him for going back on his word by making it seem like she’ll go to the press with his name? Is she trying to earn headlines however she can in her twisted way? This is not a sane person.